O.RE.SA-MIAN

This is Ashleigh Goodfellow, the main character of the novel I'm currently writing, drawn by Zimra.
It was originally supposed to be the cover of the novel, but the writers' label I'm part of will take another graphic approach. I'm a bit bummed by that since I really love this drawing, but I'll probably find another use for it.

About this novel-writing thing... I'm not sure how I'm gonna make it. There is A LOT to do, a lot of plotting, a lot of research, and I'm supposed to turn in my manuscript by mid-april -- I'm really not sure I'll be able to make it. I thought I would go full NaNoWriMo on this thing but shit, a month and a half is actually very little time...

My head is buzzing righ now full of questions like "is it too far-fetched?", "is it ridiculous?", "is this even a good story?", "would people actually want to read this?", "would no-one care but me?" -- which I immediately try to cut off with a mantra of "don't think don't think don't think just go go go"; I feel positively schizophrenic. I'm not even sure I'm excited about it right now, I'm just in a manic phase where ideas come pouring in like little puzzle pieces and I receive them wondering where I'm gonna make them fit; "ooh this one is nice, but does it belong to this puzzle or another? Am I trying too hard to make it fit because it has roughly the same shape of the piece I'm looking for and I really like its colours?"
And I want to tell the whole world about them ("Look at my stuff, isn't it neat? Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?") but it wouldn't make sense to anyone else but me because they're really just bits and pieces which would sensibly look like junk to any outsider of my own flipping brain. Marvelling at single puzzle pieces doesn't make any sense.

Talk to me f-list, I wanna read your thoughts about creating and writing especially if you're in the middle of writing something too, I wanna talk to people about it because NO ONE ELSE CAN UNDERSTAND

If you have writing tips, articles you like, anything, come and talk about them, I'm interested!

I didn't write the fics I said I wanted to write, instead I wrote other fics, so I don't want to jinx myself by saying here what I want to write and end up not doing it, but anyway

-Agents of Shield. Specifically, Mack/Fitz. I have a size kink a mile wide and a gigantic buff hot nerd folding a frail little nerd with dewy eyes in half and fucking him roughly up against a wall is an, um. Interesting. Prospect.
Yes.

-The Mighty Boosh. There are some very good, well-written fics out there, but the smut is kind of disappointing so far. Mostly because when I imagine Vince and Howard "bumming" as they say, I can't really wrap my head around them being completely amazing at it and spot-on on the first try and spectacular orgasms everywhere. It doesn't have to be bad sex necessarily, but I always imagine a lot of talking and comebacks and exasperation, and awkward fumbling and at least some inadequacy because they're both huge useless dorks. But they're ridiculously in love, so it's still sweet, and they end up kind of finding a way to make it work, not without a few chuckles from Vince. Laughter during sex is also a minor kink of mine (yeah, up there with my millions of other kinks).
That's my headcanon anyway; I really need to get around to that, because it's important, somehow.

Fics I need to write:

-an obscure fic in French for a fandom that doesn't even exist

-the sequel to my Attack on Titan threesome porn fic

-a Musketeers brothel AU, Athos/d'Artagnan; I'd like to make it with a plot and multi-chaptered, lord help me

-a Free!/Musketeers fusion with the boys as a swimming team (d'Artagnan only swims freestyle heyyyyy) except I don't know shit about swimming or even sports in general (food? Hell yeah, bring it, anything, I'm the expert. Sports...? ...How does that even work?). I just know swimmers have great bods, yeaaaaah

-I'd like to try my hand at mpreg and give Aramis a baby, but even thoughts of pregnancy scare the shit out of me... So do I do it as a dare, like the 00Q daddy kink I dared myself to write? Hmmm.

See if I can write more than one fic per year! This should be interesting.